Psalm 91

Lately, I've been dealing with a lot of fear and it has gotten to the point where I am too afraid to accomplish certain things or even start them. For example, I am supposed to re-do my Moody essays, but I am so afraid that I won't do them right that I find myself pushing them to the side. My fears have brought me to the point of tears...it has been plauging my life, but I will not stand for it any longer! My God is greater, stronger, wiser, all-knowing, etc. Still...even though I know that about my God, I am caught up in fear/ worrying/...Within my misery, God got my attention. During my devotions two days ago I opened up my Bible to a random page and it opened at Psalm 91. The first two verses of Psalm 91 says, "Whoever dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty.² I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust.” After I read both of these verses, I felt the Holy Spirit leading me to write them down on a note card to memorize. So I did...:)

I began to read over Psalm 91 and these two verses over and over. Through my head I continually wanted to remind myself that God is my dwelling place--someone who I could run to no matter what and most importantly, someone who I could trust with ever part of my life, including my fear problem. Two days after coming across this Psalm, I was searching the set-apart girl website, and came across a sermon by Leslie Ludy's husband, Eric Ludy. The sermon I found was called fearless. Even though it was a one hour and 33 minutes long, I knew I needed to take time to watch it because the title drew me in. As Eric began talking, he began to explain how it is a sin to fear. I thought to myself, “Wow, I didn’t know it was a sin to fear…oh dear…I’ve been sinning a whole lot then.” After the sermon was over, I fell at the feet of Jesus in prayer and asked Him to empower me to stand strong against Satan attacks. I want to be a young woman who follows her King, and lives life to the fullest. Through God’s power, I will not be a slave to fear—for my only master is Jesus Christ.

Recent update: Today, Satan has been attacking me with waves of fearful thinking, etc. Instead of dwelling on my fears, I am choosing to take those thoughts captive immediately, and bringing them before the Lord. God is my strength--I am not in this fight alone. :)

Verses that I’ve been meditating on:
 Psalm 91:1-2

Psalm 24: 1-The earth is the LORD’s, and everything in it,
   the world, and all who live in it…

Songs that have been helping me through this time:

Our God is greater, our God is stronger--God you are higher than any other! –Chris Tomlin “Our God”

Kristian Standfill- “My hope is in the Lord”

God is good, all the time! J